Still

After all these years ... there are still somethings which I cant change abt myself which I hate ...
I know it shouldnt be this way ....

However, I always fail to bring myself to do it ...

Its in my mind ... but I failed to put it into action ...

I can only tell myself in the brain to ... "pls do it ... "

Yet .. it never materialise ..... haizz ...

When will this change ?

When can i untangle this thing in me ?